I think it's good to go crazy on occasion. I feel better now, more confident. There's a line right at the end of Philip K. Dick's A Scanner Darkly (I read the book recently) which goes something like, "in his mind, where no-one could see". I think the important thing to remember is that no matter how bad or scared I feel, no-one else has to know if I don't want them to. And thinking like that makes me feel safer, and not so worried about what people think of me.
Today I went in the shop that sells bongs and replica guns and had a good look around, although I'm usually too intimidated. They sell cute cat ornaments and expensive figurines of Betty Boop. I'm glad to see that they sell nothing but junk, because apparently they're closing down.
Also there were some TV crews on the High Street, filming the new police officer-mounted cameras. I didn't see any logos for what channel it was, so it might have been a police training video or something similar. I'm glad to see the force phasing out the old, static CCTV cameras in favour of CCTV cameras that can beat people up and shock them with Tasers.